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7 months ago

My-Useless-Effort

It was 2.30 in the morning. No, I was not mistaken, I clearly wrote MORNING. Two and half hours after midnight. For you who know me quite well, must be wondering, “What the h*** are you doing at this time?”. Yeah, I know I usually have been to the Dreamland at this time. I usually have been there since at most 23.00, not to mention 2.30. This night was different. I was supposed to be excited by my second essay topic, as I have already written. Somehow, I got stuck. Let me tell you the story of my essay, NO! it wasn’t essay yet. Only the essay outline! Let’s start from the beginning. My essay topic was about freedom of speech. I’d chosen to stand for freedom of speech needs some restrictions. As a social person, who somehow got lost in engineering department, I was very happy to get that topic. I could breathe some fresh air there; get out from the d***** science circle for a while.

First, I’d introduce you to M4L35 virus. It is a dangerous virus, more dangerous than the pig flu that is very popular by now. The M4L35 virus destroys your motivation into infinity pieces, so that there is no way to rebuild it. The virus diluted the creativity in your brain, so that the creativity in your brain becomes negligibly small. Furthermore, it interferes with your emotional state, changes you into a couch potato, not willing to do anything but wasting time! There is no vaccine to this virus, not in the past, not now, and most probably, not in the future. It is IMPOSSIBLE to make a human being immune to the M4L35 virus. Yet, similar to influenza viruses, it could be cure. The M4L35 virus only takes everything that already inside your body. After all of them used up, the virus also disappeared, leaving you become such a creature, no will to do any good. Thus, we have to feed ourselves by the balance amount of motivation, creativity and some new target. Otherwise, we will be a useless creature FOREVER! Several days ago, I was infected by the M4L35 virus. The God d*** virus in the extremely wrong time! When I needed every single drop of my ability to survive in this world, I’ve become incapacitate by the virus. OH-MY-GOD! To make it short, that virus made me couldn’t come up with ANY idea for my-precious-25%-argumentative-essay. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! Imagine I scream hysterically, please. A week that my teacher had given to come up with rough outline is not enough for me.

As if the virus is not enough to destroy me inside-out, the concept of the topic itself start to drive me mad! As an Indonesian, who lives since “New-Era”, where Soeharto became the president for the first 7 years of my life, the restrictions of freedom of speech is TOO CLEAR to be analyze more. There is no way I could emptied my brain and try to do some literary research to produce a good essay. It’s already carved too deep in my brain. Every single article that I read couldn’t help me out of this whirlpool. So, there I was, still alive at nearly morning to finish my outline. After drinking a glassful of coffee, my-has-no-immune-to-caffeine-body become URGHH!! Urghh means my heart was beating harder and faster then usual, my body became numb, my brain felt like floating, feelt like there is a butterfly inside my stomach, and most important of all, why I let my body suffer like that, is I didn’t fall asleep. I had finished my outline, although I’m sure my teacher will be disappointed, not only disappointed I thought. If and only if she is allowed to curse me, to torture me, she definitely will. But, there is nothing more that I could do to save my life. Phewww… I really am tired and fed up with this condition, being in an endless rally with essays and exams, while I’m riding M4L35 virus. How on earth could I win???

By the way, awaking all night long, gave me some time to write new posts for my blog (^^). Also, I called 9333, It’s a call center for my cell-phone provider. It let me know that there is NO more credit left and EVENMORE tragic for me, only 30 SMSs left as my SMS credits, while I may not buy another SMS credits until the last week of May!! It is a package of 500 SMSs valid for a month. If it already finished before a month, you’re not allowed to buy more packages. If it’s been a month and you’ve been used it up’ the rest of the credit will go waste. OH NO!! 30 SMSs for 17 days!!! It will make my lonely night even more lonely (T.T)

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